“I just don’t care.”

That was yesterday’s mantra. Well technically it’s probably the mantra of the week, but I actually said it out loud to myself yesterday.

It was one of those days where I just wanted to cozy up with myself and a blankie and eat. So that’s basically what I did. No gym. No homemade dinner. Just me and a big bag of crap from McDonald’s. Followed by a huge bowl of buttered popcorn. I did enjoy it though, so at least there’s that. I would feel worse if when I was done I hadn’t liked it or felt shitty, but I didn’t…it was allllll goooood.

Of course, by bedtime I felt like I’d eatten a salt lick, so water and I are going to be very good friends today. I even opted for green tea instead of coffee this morning. Not sure if it will help, but it was worth a shot. I haven’t been feeling the coffee lately anyway so it was a good opportunity for change.

I can still feel that “I don’t care” feeling niggling around in my head. I guess it’s just one of those slumps…the weather has turned gloomy, DBF has been gone for a month, money is tight because of those stupid massage and chiro appointments, my arm/neck doesn’t seem to be getting any better, and the Xmas gong show is already starting. Grrrr. DBF is home for this weekend and we are going to celebrate my birthday a little, so maybe that will help me snap out of it.

The food plan for today (here’s hoping I can stick to it!)…

– green tea with smidge of honey
– PC BM bagel with natural PB and sliced banana
– tossed salad with chickpeas and cheddar
– afternoon tea with Fibre One bar
– dinner I was supposed to eat last night: Nutrigo chicken nuggets, grilled zucchini…maybe some carrots & spinach dip
– yogurt & raspberries